It was right before Christmas when I realized that something was not going well in my life. There was too much uncertainty and speculation going on at work, I was no longer in touch with the philanthropic side of me, I haven't gone regularly to the gym in the past months, single, 20lbs heavier... ouch.
I could not pinpoint the root cause of my newly found <unhappiness> but certainly I could no longer ignore it. It was there, staring at me. As Brene Brown would say "once you see a pattern, you can't un-see it". I somehow could not take into consideration all my accomplishments during that sequence of days. I could just look at what was not working, and I wanted to FIX IT.
I did not have much time to invest in a longitudinal study (I will let that for the therapists), so all that I could do was to look at the facts, and work on them. I thought that writing my new year resolutions was the first thing I could do to improve the situation. I believe that this was the first time when I realized that finding my soulmate was not on my priority list. I had shit to take care of it. I decided that 2013 would be the me, me, me year. When I say "me", I am extending the word to myself, my family, and my friends. I realized that I completely lost touch with "me"and I was living my life in function of the "others".
Long story short, I decided to put some pressure on living a healthier life, and that's why I will be blogging in 2013. I will be posting a picture of every piece of food that goes into my mouth, and I will log the exercises. As someone who enjoys going for dinners as a hobby, dieting is a nightmare, or a prison like experience. It will take sometime for me to adjust, and when looking at a restaurant menu, not going ballistic on foraging for carbohydrates.
Wish me good luck!
Fernanda
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